Long, very detailed, mostly for me, but feel free to read if you like! 🙂
DAY TWENTY-TWO (7/4) – Only eight more days to go! Although I honestly probably am not going to change a whole lot on Day 31. I will probably add some stevia or something to my coffee, and maybe have a beer, but that’s probably it. I will relax my vigilance about added sugar in products. I haven’t decided yet whether to do the structured reintroduction or the “take it as it comes” kind. The fact that we have vacation coming up the last week of July may help me decide.
Today’s mood was a bit better. Still feeling withdrawn and quiet. Not quite so crabby and irritable, but still not feeling “great”. No tiger blood yet. Really missing my solitude day. As I get older, I am realizing more and more how very much I need alone time. Asked John to take the boys out for a few hours today so I could have some quiet. I worked on some art, wrote in my journal and made some food for the week.
Meal #1: roasted mixed starchy vegetables (sweet potatoes, carrots, butternut squash), sauteed onions, peppers and mushrooms topped with two fried eggs. Coffee with coconut milk.
Meal #2: protein salad (tuna with chopped carrots, scallions, hot peppers, homemade mayo and mustard), half and apple with cashew butter.
Meal #3: Salad with greens, tomatoes, kale, avocado, roast turkey, bacon, two hard boiled eggs, sunflower seeds, olive oil and balsamic vinegar.
DAY TWENTY-THREE (7/5) – Today was a bit better. Although I am beginning to suspect that not being able to use food to stuff my feelings is partly (or maybe mostly) to blame for the recent anger and irritability. That and the fact that I am really craving solitude. Like – I could go away by myself for a week and maybe that would be enough. I like and don’t like this about myself. And it’s really hard for other people who don’t need so much solitude and quiet to understand. Especially my family. Especially myself. Why is this such a strong need for me?
Had an uncomfortable emotional time this evening. Left to pick up the boys from the library and had to stop at Weis to pick up eggs since we were out. I wanted so very badly to eat all the sweet, fat laden pastries and cookies. I had to put blinders on as I walked all the way through the store. I did cave and get a Larabar – apple pie. I ate it in the car. I am not proud that I resorted to food to help with my emotional issues, but glad that Despite doing so, I stayed on plan.
Meal #1: Shrimp, greens and squash.
Meal #2: rest of the shrimp and greens, apple
Meal #3: Roast chicken, carrots, squash and kohlrabi
Meal #4: Grilled chicken, zucchini, squash and pineapple.
DAY TWENTY FOUR (7/6): Feeling better today. Not so depressed and moody. Still wouldn’t say I am “happy” or buoyant or exuberant, but mediocre, maybe? I guess that’s better than I’ve been feeling the last few days, although still not where I want to be. My energy seems to be leveling out, not having highs and lows anymore, and don’t have that 3pm afternoon slump like I used to. Energy seemed pretty consistent throughout the day, which is an improvement. Still think I need more sleep. Walked 1/2 mile at lunch today, and then another mile after dinner this evening. Took Shasta down to the river. Was going to let her get in, but the banks were so muddy from the recent rain that I was afraid we’d get stuck in it.
Did fine with food today. No major cravings other than the usual coffee….but the kids’ ice cream sure looked good. It’s so evident how much eating I did (and am still tempted to do) out of pure habit, availability and convenience. Eating this way is teaching me to plan and think about what I’m eating rather than just reaching for whatever s there, and being influenced by the sight or smell of food. Family had tacos for dinner this evening and I made my own taco salad, sort of. I mixed ground beef with canned diced tomatoes with chili peppers, chili powder, garlic salt, cayenne pepper, salt. I diced a leftover baked potato and threw that in, heated it up and poured it over a big plate of shredded lettuce. It was actually really good.
Also – I have to confess, I weighed myself today. I know we are not supposed to, but I really felt leaner and wanted to see how much. On June 6th – a week before I started, I was 218.4. Today, I was 209.2. A loss of 8 pounds in three weeks. No more weighing until the end, when I will measure as well.
Meal #1: Rest of the spinach frittata I made last week, half an avocado, coffee with coconut milk.
Meal #2: Leftover grilled shrimp, squash, zucchini and mixed roasted sweet potatoes, butternut squash and carrots, few spoonfuls of cucumber/tomato salad (in vinegar and oil, with fresh dill)
Meal #3: same as meal #2.
Meal #4: Homemade taco salad as above, handful of cashews and blueberries.
DAY TWENTY-FIVE (7/7): Pretty good day today. Still not waking up feeling refreshed and full of energy, but maybe that’s because a) I’m just not getting enough sleep, b) it’s going to take more than 30 days to clear all the junk out of my system, or c) I’m 50 and can’t expect to feel 20 again. 🙂
Had a July birthdays ice cream social at work and I did just fine. I had some pineapple and blueberries I had brought as part of my lunch, and added some unsweetened coconut “sprinkles” and almonds. It was delicious and I honestly didn’t really miss the ice cream. I focused on talking with the people who were there and trying not to focus so much on the food.
Lots of yummy vegetables from the CSA, although I’m going to have to think about what to do with all those cucumbers and squash!
Meal #1: mashed sweet potatoes and butternut squash topped with two eggs fried in coconut oil, coffee with coconut milk.
Meal #2: Mixed ground beef, diced canned tomatoes, cubed baked potato with spices over about 2-3 cups of chopped lettuce. (Noticed that I must not have eaten enough fat and/or protein at this meal, since I was hungry three hours later.Ate some of meal #3 a little early, at 2pm, then ate the rest at about 4:30pm. Kind of through my day’s schedule off and I ended up eating more frequently than I have been.)
Meal #3: Protein salad with tuna, lots of chopped vegetables and homemade mayo, pineapple and blueberries topped with unsweetened shredded coconut and slivered almonds.
Meal #4: Salmon fried in ghee with Old Bay, coconut cauliflower “rice” (from the book – I liked it, kids were not fans. They missed their “real” rice.), steamed broccoli.
Just before bed three hours later, I felt a bit hungry again and had a handful of cashews.
DAY TWENTY-SIX (7/8): Another okay day. Not “great!” but not awful. Quiet day at work. Lots of heartbreaking stuff going on in the world, trying not to let it all get to me too much. Starting to think about re-introduction. Still not sure how to go about it. I will probably re-introduce gluten (in the form of beer) first. 🙂 Planning to read the re-introduction section of the book again.
Meal #1: Sauteed chard and cubed baked potato with two eggs scrambled in. Coffee with coconut milk.
Meal #2: baked sweet potato, cauliflower-coconut rice, sauteed shrimp, pineapple with unsweetened coconut, slivered almonds and a few dried cranberries.
Meal #3: same as meal #2
Meal #4: Went out to Red Robin and got a “wedgie burger” – a hamburger topped with tomatoes, onions, guacamole and wrapped in a “bun” of iceberg lettuce. Served with a side salad. I brought my own homemade dressing of olive oil, vinegar and lemon juice, which I used on the salad, but didn’t end up eating much of it because the burger was very filling. It was also very delicious. Realized afterward that I didn’t ask what was in the guacamole. 🙁 Hopefully nothing restricted this late in the game.
DAY TWENTY-SEVEN (7/9): Not that hungry today. Ate one hard boiled egg with homemade mayo for breakfast along with my coffee. A smallish second and third meals. Going to our neighbors’ for a cookout later. I won’t really be able to eat anything there other than the salad I’m bringing. Getting close to re-introduction. Read that section of the book again to prepare. I think I’m going to do the “fast track” way, where you try a new food group every three days. Should finish up just before vacation. Going to try gluten (so I can have beer!) first next Wednesday. Hopefully I don’t have a bad reaction. I would really hate to think that beer makes me feel badly. Also looking forward to not being so vigilant about added sugars in things, and putting a tiny bit of sweetener in my coffee. Maybe maple syrup or stevia?
Meal #1: Coffee with coconut milk, egg with homemade mayo.
Meal #2: about 10 shrimp mixed with cauliflower-coconut “rice”, carrots, squash and sweet potatoes.
Meal #3: Ground beef mixed with crushed tomatoes and spices over half a baked potato.
Meal #4: Grilled shrimp (about 6), half a deviled egg, sauerkraut, salad with olive oil and lemon juice.
DAY TWENTY-EIGHT (7/10): Wonky day today. Got off my “schedule” and didn’t feel as in control or satisfied most of the day. I didn’t eat anything I shouldn’t have, just didn’t feel as good about the day. Went to church, came home, put Mason’s stuff in the van, then spent from 1:30pm-7:15pm n the car driving him to camp and driving home. Lovely day out, Kelly Clarkson and Pink on CD player, as well as some books on tape made the trips sort of fun – but that’s a lot of driving. 🙂
Thinking more about reintroduction. Need to make a detailed plan/menu for my reintro days.
Ate breakfast about 7:30am: sauteed squash, zucchini and onions, small baked potato, cubed and topped with to fried eggs.
Brought some cashews and a banana to church. At some of the cashews during the service, around 11:30am, the banana afterward, at about 12:30pm.
Didn’t really have a full “lunch” when I got home, which was a mistake. I just forgot and didn’t have time to eat. Did put together some food to bring with me, though. We stopped at the grocery store to get some snacks for the trip for Mason – a tradition he loves. He got beef jerky (we looked for sugar-free ones, but no luck, so no beef jerky for me), chips and gummy worms. Not healthy, I know, but once in a while, he can indulge. 🙂 It was so hard not to eat some of his snacks on the way. I was hungry since I didn’t eat lunch, and I was craving “snackiness” of it all. I also have discovered that it is a habit for me to eat and drive. Being in my car, especially on a longer trip, triggers my desire for junk food and cravings for sweets. I ate the apple I brought with me and the last of the cashews from this morning instead at about 3:00pm.
Got to camp, got Mason settled, then we sat on a picnic table outside and I ate what I brought. (about 4:15pm): canned chicken mixed with homemade mayo over mixed spinach and greens, unsweetened iced tea.
One the way home, I stopped for a bottle of water and also got a bag of apple chips. Just apples and cinnamon, baked, but they were really good. Felt kind of like desert and did trigger me a bit, but was surprised how sweet just the apples and cinnamon were, with no added sugar.
Drove home, helped cook dinner. We finally ended up eating around 8:15pm or so: three slices of bacon (no sugar!), two fried eggs over the rest of the sauteed squash mixture from this morning.
Not having evenly spaced food that followed the meal template, eating two actual pieces of fruit and that bag of apple chips were more sweet things than I’ve had in awhile. I did have a hard time in the Sheetz when I stopped for water, looking very enviously at the frozen coffee drinks other people were having. I needed to keep reminding myself that I am choosing this. No one is making me do this. I am choosing this as a food experiment. I am a little nervous that I will “go crazy” and not take the reintroduction slowly enough. I am also nervous that I will go right back to my old habits and not have learned anything from this.
Week Four, done. Two more days.